But it’s impossible to ignore how it’s Hange who steps in and dashes any possibility of them sitting this fight out against the rocks. Connie even says that they’re supposed to be saving people, not murdering their friends, etc. What I found really interesting here was how Jean, Connie, Mikasa and Armin don’t answer at first, and you can see this is a huge struggle for them, the scenario presented before them one which clearly goes against everything they want to believe they’re fighting for. That theme comes back in a huge way in chapter 128, and it’s really interesting to see Reiner try to step in and take on the role of martyr by telling the members of the 104th that they don’t need to fight, trying to save them from the moral dilemma of killing their own comrades.

It doesn't mean that he can't be close to Doumeki, because we all know he was imagining that Doumeki would passionately kiss him in the elevator and in Tsunakawa's guest bathroom. The point I'm trying to get at, if I ever get there (jfc), is that Yashiro becomes triggered when he's having sex with Doumeki. While Doumeki was trying to be sexy and alluring by taking his glove off with his teeth, wearing this sultry expression, Yashiro's face was literally like: 🤨. He wasn't there in the moment with Doumeki he was in his head, reframing the situation.

This is just my take, but it seems like that was a scary moment for Yashiro. He pulls Doumeki off of him and lands sweating, ungracefully on his stomach. Chapter 46: Doumeki takes his glove off and touches Yashiro tenderly Yashiro gets a vision of Doumeki touching a naked woman, one thing leads to another, and suddenly Yashiro is reminded that Doumeki is being too gentle. I'm not saying one caused the other, but I think they are strongly linked to each other. Shortly after sleeping with Doumeki, Yashiro let Hirata attempt to kill him. It's more intense than 'normal' memory and is very difficult to go through. This is post-traumatic stress disorder and it happens when a stimulus in our environment (something we see, hear, smell, taste, feel) triggers a memory so profound that it feels like we are re-living a traumatic incident again. So, what is Yashiro experiencing when he's intimate with Doumeki? Well, the first time, Yashiro was refusing lots they did it anyway, and afterwards we see Yashiro cry for the first time as an adult, while remembering an abuse incident as a child.

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